photos of bbq.

here is my promise. :D photos are in order.









yes, sikit orang. family bbq, i call it? :P

bbq.

maid and sister.
the bbq lastnight was going so well but very tiring until i fell asleep with my plaid shirt and black skinny jeans. and guess what? i did eat lastnight! :O because there were alot of foods. i love the lamb chop. (Y) haha. i think i gain weight for eating it. :( :P gezz. sorry, i can't upload the photos cause the photos are still in the camera. maybe, soon. yes? :)

lucky laki.

abang called me this morning, around 6ish am. he said we will be having BBQ later. :D yayer! picture above is from abang's 19th birthday, was on 23rd may, pantai berakas, bbq. :)
soooo, geo two was hard. :/ irk was quite okay. (Y) hehe.
my brothers annoyed me just now. they came to my room when i was busy dating with my facebook and asked 'kaka jimah, do you know this song - aku bukan lah superman ..........', annoying wah. sheeze. :/ so, as their request, i downloaded the song and watched the video clip on youtube. i tell you, the band was *ten thumps up! you better watch it, no regret. :D entah, at first i hated them but hey, they are actually (Y)! they can sing, play drum and so on. i salute their father for teaching them! hee. okay, don't get me wrong. my family members and i are not into indonesian band, proudly to say. but i don't know. my baby brother likes it pasal ada 'superman' kali? heyho, i am still not into them. i am just saying that they are actually great! :)

$370. money, money.

"sediakan $370 and everything will be okay."

HAHA. stupid quote. :P i'm currently doing my past year paper exam question. gezz. hoyeah, no sleep tonight. ;)

6 months.

was in KualaLumpur, 2007."WE ARE SIBLINGS!" :D say it out loud!

dad gave $50 just now. now, khairol, arina and i are thinkin which restaurant should we go for our dinner. but gezz, i am on diet now. i think, i can't go. believe me, i haven't eaten for three days. proud of it. ;)
i have new plaid shirt, it's blue. lawa. :)

"give me a lesson on how to steal, steal a heart, as fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine." -6 months by hey monday.

bubble!

i am currently playing my brother's ballon/bubble. siuuuuuuuuuk! :D it's 330-ish pm, he's off to ugama already. as you can see, i am still in my school uniform. ;) to lazy to change it.
so, exam was (N). maths two was oh-okay. and malay one was payah, hell yeahzzzz! oKaYzZ, tYpiNg LiKe dizz iZ sO cOoLzx, NOT! back to my story, malay one was payah. i couldn't elaborate my points. ergh. hope i'll get 60+ for malay, amin. cause last time, i only got 56% for malay but 73% for english. sheeze. what ya think? this is so not right. :S
my mom and dad are at bengkurong now, having a meeting about insurance car with abang nazri cause he's going to teach his students in smja again. welcome back! :)

p/s: saturday - Geography two and IRK 1.

boredom.

i haven't revised my maths yet because i am lazy. sheeze. ohyeah, i deleted my previous post about the ex-boyfriend thingy cause 'H' is reading this. :) and and i read his blog too! his friend says 'congrats about the girl, your nadhrah.' well err, i don't know how to respond you, HisFriend. :)
i didn't notice that i clicked 'in a relationship' link when i wanted to change my status on facebook to 'its complicated'. my brother - azim gave a comment, saying 'WOW!'. ofcourse, i was like 'wow what?! :O' :O it seems like he doesn't like when i am in a relationship, yes? HAHAHA.
i am bored. i should be studyin pulang. blahh. i can hear my dad is on the phone now with Luqman because he keep saying that name. i think Luqman is his pekerja, isn't it? i wonder 'apakan keraja babah ani?'. i was told my dad is a businessman but entah, i just don't care. ;)
i have no idea why Fah'es calls me 'Jazwan'. hmph? :/

i need to sleep by now. so long and goodnight, readers!

wish me luck!

i just got back from extraclass. i am tired.
as you guys know, i'll be sitting for my qualifyin exam tomorrow, maths and malay. wish me luck! :)


i bought new coloured skinny jeans few days ago. it's purple. but i just have one problem with it. gahh. oh oh yeah, i am on diet now. i'm getting fatter, don't you think so? always remember bazli's word - 'tahan saja'. well, thanks bazli. :)

imissyou. :)

(3 years ago's photo!)
i dedicate this post to someone. you know who you are. :)
it's sad to know that there are some people that i will have to say goodbye to in my lifetime. it's sad how they can just slowly fade away and i just have to sit there and watch it happen. have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation? one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? if so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days. and none will outweight the one you wish you had back. and even if we never talk again. always remember that i'm forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me. times were tough, but memories remain. situations were rough but we overcame. side by side, together we grew. when all is said & done i'll look back on friends like you there's those occasional nights when you break down and mad because you know that things will never be the same. well, i guess tonight's one of them. i won't even pretend that i still know you maybe you're the one that's lost but you're not looking for a way back. can't you see our friendship was the cost great to see you're smiling again but it's a shame we can't stay friends. it's sad to see that two people who use to be so close don`t even recognize each other anymore. not because we grew up but, because we grew apart. months from now, i'm gonna look back and remember that you were ;
-the one who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words.
-the one who lifted my head when i was losing faith in myself.
-the one who was there for me after every fight, every break up, every death.
-the one who always knew what i was feeling by our conversation.
-the one who accepted who i was when everyone else laughed in my face.
:)
-the one that accepted every decision i made, believing that i'd make the right decisions.
-the one who knew who i really was.
-the one that made the biggest difference in my life.
it's you, intimate friend♥.

its okay to want someone you can't have. it's okay to keep friendships when you don't want them, or want something more. its okay to cry when you're hurt and its okay to stay mad at someone who hurts you. believe it or not, its always gonna be okay. thats just how it works. sometimes, things don't always work out the way you want them to, and a lot of times, it seems like they never will, but its okay. thats how life's supposed to go. its all about learning, how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road and waiting till they're smooth again. its all about forgiving and forgetting. its all about waiting and wishing. thats just how life is. the worst thing in life is to lose a friend. a friend means the world to me. a friend that i put all my trust and faith in a friend that i believed in from the start. a friend that took the center of my heart. a friend that i'd die for. a friend that i wanted to cherish for a lifetime. a friend, a good friend, a best friend, an intimate friend. it's not up to me anymore. if you want me in your life, you're just going to have to figure out a way to get me there. a real best friend never gets sick of me, they always want to hang out with each other, they have all the insiders in the world, no matter what happens or who comes along. nothing gets in the way of their friendship. i look at all the pictures from the past, thinking of how the years/days went by so fast. the jokes, the laughs and cute photos. the people ive known since way back when the new kids came every now & then. the friendships you make come and go, but there's always those few you'll always know. now as we go our separate ways, i know ill remember those days.


emo much? yes? no? err, are you reading this? :) hoyeah, imissyou! :( i think i need time-machine now. back to 2006, can i? :D

pictures.

i found hari raya last year album in my mum's room just now. so, i took pictures using my phone. im just lazy to print it. soyeah.

soon! :)

on july 15th, i sent abang to bengkurong. then, mum decided to go to padang/bandar/perayaan after that. it reminds me of my past but i just don't care. O:) mum plans to buy a new car.

abang suggests Dodge Caliber.

and i suggest mum to buy Honda Accord Coupe

or

Nissan Cefiro.

but mum replies us with 'we will see'. so people, we will see. :)

deylah's 16.

HAPPY 16th NURFADHILLAH ISMAIL.
she was my literature-mate. i remember when we were studying literature at 4g's class, then my brother came. you were like 'OMG! cute jua lelaki atu', suprisingly i went 'OMG DEY, HE'S MY BROTHER!'.
sorry for not texting you, im out of credit. but i went to Friendster tadi, signing in, went to your page and greet you. be happy with Fadhullah, yes? tehee. :)

p/s: i didn't attent school again today. gahh. im getting lazier. :/ help me!

two words, good night!

i am going to sleep now. goodnight. mwaa.

x,
jn♥.

officially engaged.

my baju kurung arrived at 11-ish pm lastnight. erghh, spoilt my night. *rolling eyes. attented majlis pertunangan this afternoon. as i reached there, as usual, i saw all of my cousins were wearing the same baju. uncool, yes? mum brought us to bandar/kg ayer, crusing around after that. i hate to admit this, we were all sakai. :O

hari raya!

i miss hari raya so much. :( blame syuhada for this. :P

Hari Raya 2007.





Makan Doa Arwah 2008.


Hari Raya 2008.








there are a lot of pictures, actually. but i'm lazy to upload it. maybe next time, yes? :)

compromise, anyone? :P

sorry for not updating. the wifi was killing me. and plus, i am still out of credit since june 22nd. so, i couldn't update this blog through laptop and cellphone.
but now, the wifi is okay now.
i went to school this morning. i was shocked about the hand sanitizer thingy. teacher erne handed me hand sanitizer and i refused what i had been asked. i tried to escape but she blocked my way and forced me to hand her. lastly, i handed her my hand. :P
we were having our qualifying exam for english this morning. that's why i went to school. if it is not because, i wouldn't be going. paper 1 was fairly hard. paper 2 was quite okay. hope i will pass. amin.
i'm bored now. we have majlis pertunangan for my dad's first cousin, Ampuan Sairul Azmi Ampuan Said tomorrow. hope it's gonna be fun. i'm here waiting for my baju kurung to arrive. i have to wear it tomorrow. gahh. mudahan tah ada. amin. i'm bored bored bored now. i wanna go out but i have no kawan. :( i wanna bring zee jalan but sheeze, i have to meet her parents dulu. cause remember last time, my convo with her mum ;

n : aunt, can i bring zee jalan?
a : have you told her?
n : yeah but she didn't reply my text.
a : she is out of credit, i think.
n : maybe.
a : eh, ada jua credit nya tu. $10, belum berpakai.
n : ah. entah ah. she didnt reply me.
a : just go upstairs. meet her.
n : okay.
a : she's grounded actually, yknow?
n : oh yeah? that means i can't bring her?
a : you can. where are you guys going?
n : gadong. buying presents for our friends.
a : oh, you go lah.
a : eh wait, nad.
n : err, yes?
a : who was the guy yang sent zee home masa that night? was he your cousin?
n : err, yang mana satu?
a : yang kerita mazda kuning.
n : ah yeah. he's my cousin.
a : what's his name?
n : bazement. eh, izzullah.
a : i saw zee was alone masa balik dalam kerita. she told me he's your cousin but you weren't there. iatah, i was curious.
n : ah atu, pasal he lives around here. minyak nya lagi kan habis. so, he had to send me home first cause my house is near gadong.
a : oh okay. agatah, go upstairs.

see, i had to lie. bazement is not my cousin. no no. and he doesnt live at Qiulap, he lives at Muara.

Michael Jackson, #7.

Get ready to have your mind blown. Ready? Here we go...
1. Michael Jackson signed his will on 7/7/02 .
2. Michael Jackson's memorial was on 7/7/09
3. exactly 7 years after the will was signed.
4. Michael Jackson's two biggest hits, "Black & White" and "Billie Jean" were each #1 for 7 weeks.
5. Michael Jackson's three biggest albums "Thriller," "Bad" and "Dangerous" each produced 7 top 40 hits.
6. Michael Jackson was the 7 th of 9 children.
7. Michael Jackson was born in 1958. (19 + 58 = 77)
8. Michael Jackson died on the 25th. (2 + 5 = 7)
9. Michael Jackson has 7 letters in his first and last name.


P/S:If you're looking for lottery numbers today, i recommend something with the number 7 in it.

MJ was my nigga. not the one that play ball, the one with the hollywood star.

watched MJ memorial lastnight.

"i just want to say, ever since i was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. i just want to say, i love him so much." -Paris Khatherine Jackson.

i burst into tears when little paris started to speak and started cry, it was a breakdown for me. I balwed my eyes out. It was so touching. Paris Jackson broke my heart, so cute and sweet. it was so wonderfull to see how Paris reminded the world that her father was a great father. god bless her and her brothers who will live without their father, the only parent they ever knew.

"I remember the first time i seen you moonwalk, I believed I could do anything, you made the world dance, you made the music come to life. This the type of song that make the angels cry, i look up in the sky and i wonder why? why you had to go, go? I know its better on the other side , you were chosen from the start never gon let you go. Whos Michael Jackson? You're Michael Jackson, Im Michael Jackson, We all Michael Jackson, I guess what Im asking is everybody bow their head for a legend dont breathe for a second, now let the air out, grab the hand of somebody you care about, so you can hear my message, my confession. someone tell Usher, i seen the moonwalk, i guess the young thriller touched him, like he touched me, like he touched you, so carry on his legacy, something i must do, so i trust you lighting candles, concrete visuals, me and my brothers listen to jackson 5 in the living room, first thing i did when i heard was call puff, cos him and Mike tried to stop the beef between us, who was us? Me and fifty, that beef is dead, him and Mike Jackson gonna take us to the ledge. As Im pouring out this liquor candles start to flicker, when list my air ones, MJ was my nigga. Not the one that play ball, the one with the hollywood star, and since im a hollywood star imma tell you my story,never had a family that close, never see Barry Gordy walking through interscope, just like me they always had Mike in a scope, no matter what you say, imma love him and hes still dope, let me take you back to 85 when i was in a zone, dancing for my momma thriller jacket with all the zippers on, now im doing 90 bout to crash in this Aston, listening to Outcast, Im sorry Mrs Jackson. anything i can ever do to better you your son was our king so we wont Corretta you, Im writing this letter to all the Jackson kids, we all Jackson kids, time to let us through. This the kind of song that make the angels cry, look up in the sky and ask God, why do we live and let die."

goodbye, MJ. Al-Fatihah again. rest in peace. Amin.

new skin!

i am back with new skin/template! i'm happy, i'm happy. :D haha. new skin/template makes me wanna update my blog everyday. my previous skin looked so dull. no, thats not a main reason why i changed my skin. :) the main reason is...., i need to move on with my life now! means...., i need to move on. get me? gahh. i hate to explain this, actually. i keep dreaming of someone everynight. thought i have moved on but gezz, not yet, i think? or maybe, i've been forcing myself? haha. am i talking about? :P so, hmph, since the colour of my previous skin is his fave colour, which is green, so, i changed it. :D okay, you get me now. ;) i'm not comfortable talking about this here, in the internet but hmph, you have no idea who i am talkin about cause i restrain myself from talkin about him. uhh, guess what? i cut my hair by myself because of this shit. :O bida wah. blahh. do not spoil my mood, i am happy now. i love my new skin. :D hehehehehe.
as you guys know, school is reopen. i attented school yesterday and today but not for tomorrow till sunday because i'm lazy. yay, five days off! teacher said 'no need to come school if you're feeling sick, not well, wanna rest and LAZY for this week only. absentee will be given "P" for that.' so, i take this chance. yayer! haha. i have blisters on my foot because of my new school pumps. sakit. :S entah, i can't ever stand it. i wanna wear sneaker with baju kurung to school sometimes, can i? :P

a lot of people are wearing mask nowadays. no, i am not included. i havent wore mask yet cause mask is suffocating me. gezz. the last time i wore mask was last year when i visited nini at Tutong, she was having TIBI. or err, was it masa raya masa nini was transferred to RIPAS? okay, i can't remember.

ohyeah, WE'RE IN JULY NOW! :)